A poem written a long time ago...





You can hide there, you can crave
I’ll never return with blueberries,
kiss your ear, or share your pain.

And so, I write this weeping song,
thinking of you.
My eyes, like a doll’s 
flicker and fade,
a fixed and horrendous gaze upon you.

Sirens wail like ambulances 
I am only a fraction
of your memory.
Oh, I am a pebble in your mind,
gritty, insignificant,
tossed into the water of your thoughts.

And I will miss you—
I will always miss you,
you lovely bastard.


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